I’ve been asking God a few times today why he chooses to work through trials and why trials make us depend on Him.
I’ve been learning a lot lately about my own comfort levels. And I can’t believe how much I love them. I love a well stocked savings account, a beautifully decorated home, a consistent bed-time, an overflowing pantry and refrigerator, friends that love me, Christmas songs that remind me of childhood and hug my soul, a warm black tea latte, job security, babies that don’t cry, a well-heated car, and the list goes on…
But is that alone what God calls me to?
Yes and No.
He has made all those things. He wants me to enjoy them and to enjoy this life to its fullest. That’s evident all over the book of Ecclesiastes. But, he doesn’t promise that I’ll be comfortable all the time or exempt from trials. And he never said that comfort draws me closer to him.
Suffering and trials do.
Oh, but I don’t want them when they come. It’s so difficult to live by faith!
But I’m learning, in all my imperfections, that it’s not so much about the trial, but about loving and knowing him because He is better than all the comforts the world has to offer. He is the one who fills my soul and deepest longings. And He is all I will have when this life is over, not all the things I try to hold onto.
Well… I guess that’s His answer to my questions. Now it’s time to trust him in this trial!