7 Years of Marriage, Newtown & Faith for the Future

Well today marks seven years that I’ve been married to my husband Jeremiah. It’s crazy how much life can change in just seven years and honestly it really doesn’t feel like that many years have passed by.

I’m grateful for the gift of marriage. God continues to use marriage to sanctify me, show me my sin, and teach me selflessness. Daily, I’m humbled that God gave me such a loving, hard-working, godly, selfless leader to follow, who I proudly call my husband. Just like any other couple, we’ve had our share of struggles and trials but God has been faithful through every step and we give him glory for all that he has done.

We are committed to one another till death do us part and we will continue to do what it takes to keep our marriage from merely surviving to thriving. And we have learned over seven years that this is hard work.

Just last night, we were watching the CNN vigil for the community of Newtown, Connecticut. We heard President Obama’s thoughtful speech and watched the slideshow of photos of the children and adults whose lives were taken from this world on Friday.

And I wept in Jeremiah’s arms. Tears were all I had. Tears for those precious children and for our nation as a whole. I thanked God that I had someone to grieve with. My heart ached and I longed for Jesus’ return. I asked the “why’s?” and dealt with the anger.

And today, on our anniversary, that ache is still very present. I’m celebrating these past years with my husband but I’m also praying that God would heal our nation and comfort grieving Newtown. I’m praying that the next seven years Jeremiah and I will have a fervency in our faith like we’ve never had before.

There is work to be done and it starts with us. It starts with the church, whom God uses as a means to bring light into the darkness. And I have needed this wake-up call out of mediocrity and waiting for others to start the conversation.

I want to love louder and unashamedly share the gospel.

There is no other choice and as Obama had said in that speech, “we can do better” as a nation. But I also know that the church can do better too and that it starts with me.

My prayer is that the next seven years will be less about “us and our marriage” and more about Christ and his kingdom and how he can use us to make a difference. Time is running out in reaching this world with the hope that is found in Christ.

And I think more than anything that is where the real ache inside me is coming from.

Until then I hope you will join me and take a look at your own faith and life and how God might use your time, talent, and treasure to make an impact in this world. I promise to do my best to encourage and spur you on as we seek God’s will together as broken, feeble people yet nonetheless people who have been radically changed by Christ.

Why in the world did Jesus come for me?

Do you find it crazy how in the middle of such a joyous season of celebrating the birth of our Savior, so much pain and brokenness still exists all around us? I mean why can’t Christmas just make it all better?

A friend I grew up with just lost his mom, one of our ministry partner’s at work is in the hospital waiting on results from a brain tumor and is currently in rehab, people all over the nation have lost jobs, and a lot of families this Christmas won’t have any presents under their tree. Many people are wondering if all hope has been lost.

Can light even exist in such a dark, evil, messed up world?


But only because God intervened for us. In his great love and mercy, He sent his son into the world as The light. He came as a baby in the most humble means to save us because we’re a desperate people.

People in need of a divine Rescuer.

A Redeemer.

A Restorer.

He knew how evil our hearts would be towards him, yet he still came to save us from that sin so that we would be in relationship with Him- back to the way we were created to be.

This is the real story of Christmas…

Even when it seems so hazy and is difficult to accept at times, it’s still the truth.

This truth means that whatever insurmountable thing I’m facing, I can trust in God. I can trust that even though this world is not as it should be, he’s in the process of redeeming it and making it new and right. He’s in the process of making me new so that I can be a minister of  reconciliation to a world who so desperately needs Him.

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come! All this is from God, who reconciled us to himself through Christ and gave us the ministry of reconciliation: that God was reconciling the world to himself in Christ, not counting men’s sins against them….We implore you on Christ’s behalf: Be reconciled to God. – 2 Cor. 5:17-20

One day, Jesus is coming back and all our tears, pain, and sorrow will be wiped away.

And that is our great hope this Christmas that we can share with others.

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